I dunno, the moment you taught things are going back to the way the were, you discover something is different, something has change while you were gone. It wasn't the same as it was....imagine going back to your own home after 1 whole year away from home just to see that your house had been repainted with some weird looking colour, the furniture was totally different, your car its not the same as it was, even your cat look different. And you wonder, is this the house you once live in?? So many questions just run through your head that you don't even have time to stop to think about it. Hard to accept? Scary? Every time i stared at it it makes me wanna cry.

The worst part is when you're about to raise your fist, to find the one who is responsible for all these changes, you walk pass a mirror, u notice theres a stain on your shirt, oh gosh! Its paint!!! At this very moment you start to think, was it you who actually painted your own house? Did you replace the furniture? Did you modify your car? Did you kill your own cat and bought a new one? Whats going on you wonder....this is where you're totally torn apart, realizing that it was actually you are the one who did it, you are the one who painted, replace, modify and killed everything inside, you've caused it!!!

Such horror, such pain! And all you can do is to kneel down wishing that time will just turn back by itself, or wishing that you were one of the Heroes that could bend time and change things like it had never happen. Only one word for those who keep wishing for fantasy things like this will ever come true, "Fool". How can anything that happen in TV will ever happen in real life?? Far fetch!! But like it or not, thats how it goes, thats what we wish for everyday of our lives when these bad things keep reminding us about its existence.

Love....what do i know? I taught i knew what love was, but what do i know?? Is waiting enough to mend the scars? Is time itself enough to brake a person free? I guess not, it takes more then that, it takes courage, forgiveness and strength to pull it through. None of these steps is easy, its hard. How can you love someone who have hurt you so bad anymore? I know Christ did, but no matter how much we compare our selves, we're just human, and many times we depend on our own strength....here it goes again, wishing for time to turn back again.....will this taught ever go away?? How long will it mingle in our head?

At times, when crossing the road, you just wish something bad will happen to you, but not exactly kill you, but bad enough to send you to hospital. Then as you wait there on your bed, waiting for the one you love to show up, to tell you her feelings about everything. At times it seems like shes hiding something from you, does it not? Sometimes you wonder....why is it so hard for her to say I love You? I guess it all comes back to you, you made her that way!! So i guess you deserve to lay on the hospital bed.

Won't you wanna live in a world of Enchanted? Where things are always nice, and good guys always wins! No evil, no sadness, just pure happiness. And the best part is, they live happily ever after.....what a world to live in.

John, please wakeup from your slumber dreams! Please open your eyes so that you can see the light that is in front of you! Stop sleeping or you will never wakeup from this nightmare! Please John, please do wakeup.....do something......