As the years goes by, my work became more suckier then ever. I choose Interior Architecture Design thinking this could be my strength since my dad was an engineer, but hack no! I can't even design a piece of s**t. Today was my final submission on my project, and my lec told me that i have not improve anything at all, my exploration of element is poor, space design and all that crap...My time management sux. Now what? Since I'm good for nothing, should i give up? Stupid....

During my foundation years, some of my lec told me that i should take Graphic Design(GD), cause they see good potential in me, but i choose the other way, thinking i could handle it. The only project i almost got an A for is a GD project last year during my foundation year. Other then that, i sux!!!! What the heck?? Should i be in this course anyway? What the hell am I doing here? Questions questions questions, no answers, only questions.....

Maybe i should take mass comm? Maybe i should go into music, or maybe i should take computer? What the heck.....Maybe i should stay longer in Malacca....so many maybes.....for two nights i have not had a proper sleep, for weeks I've been sleeping late. Am i really that rajin? Or maybe I am lying to myself. Maybe I am as lazy as a sloth. Slow and stupid. Have i improve? I guess not....

Its stupid to ask questions like this when you're turning 20. Does this mean that I'm immature? My life is a mess....I'm too lazy to work hard for anything....guess i rather exile my self in "no man's land", build a kingdom there of my own. Even if it falls, no one knows. No one can see my shame. Stupid models, stupid course....stupid college.....stupid me.

WHAT HAVE I DONE IN MY LIFE THAT MEANT SOMETHING IMPORTANT??
my academic results? sux
my love life? sux
my walk with God? sux
my responsibilities? sux
my spelling? sux
my music talent? sux
i can sing so what? its not like its getting me anywhere...who knows 1st round kena knock out d
my sense of direction? sux
in conclusion, i sux at everything, i cant even get an interesting blog post for people to read
guess my life is dead boring huh?
back to square one.....in a box......guess i'll look at the world with two small holes from the box. That way the world cannot see me, cause i don't think that they understand....